fly away

sometimes an act of love is truly letting go… when it becomes too painful to keep holding on… when you can no longer help the one you love the most… when you are doing more harm than healing…. sometimes walking away shows how much you love them… trusting they will find their own way…. allowing…

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perfect

in my mind it could never be perfect…. fantasy and delusions come from the fallout of emptiness & neglect…. but I don’t want to be the person I once was…. staying in familiar patterns when comfort was easy because…. I set myself up to fail every time when I choose fear…. insecurities and pain always…

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Sabotage

I end any chance I have for love… Before it begins… Because my heart knows… Love always ends… And these self defenses have been with me for as long as I can remember… For so long fighting to be alone…. When all this time… I needed love the most… So long pretending… I didn’t need…

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Shine

Wounds run deep… Nightmares of the past overshadow my sleep… And the pain and my love are the ones I keep…. Push love away when my heart doesn’t believe… I’m worthy enough to ever fully receive…. And the old me… Needed you to need me… But in this never ending dance… I could never be…

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golden

I didn’t want to see it…. The dark shades in my heart…. Ones where I hurt myself… And hurt others… I drank my own poison… Long after childhood memories… And I made excuses and shifted the blame… When I was the one who chose not to fly free… My life shattered completely apart…. Then love……

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selfish

so many tears… for the love I failed to have…. forever chasing after… the love they could never give…. I became someone I didn’t know… trading love for attention… care for obsession… and sorry doesn’t quite cover all the wrongs… but I hope you know… there is only one here… in my heart… I got…

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melody

tried to write myself in a simple happily ever after… memories blurred in the edges of pain and loud laughter… but when my heart was lost…. couldn’t know then the hidden cost… in your eyes I saw my world shatter… in the end… you were all that ever… mattered…

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simple

it’s never quite simple… never more than sweet… and you were… someone I was too afraid to ever… keep… wedding rings… vows and tears to one day bring… but with you… I never regretted a thing…

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keep

I walked away from everyone I’ve ever loved… And I created a world of distance when I couldn’t feel good enough…. I sip sorrow more easily than happiness… And I abandon everything to pretend I don’t miss… The love I can’t ever let myself feel… Convinced too long ago… Love… Could never be real…

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close to the sun

always had you… forever in my heart and memories… but the gold lights drew in the deepest vices within the shattered parts of me… no excuses… no blame…. if I stay in the cycles I know… the ending will be forever the same… my heart is won… since day one… I got caught up in…

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past

the past wants to keep you within golden walls… whispers of an impossible reality as happiness falls… I can’t live like this anymore… addictions and emptiness… there’s just a new and more beautiful life to live for… self delusion is sipping sweet melodies… but even the brightest promises won’t set her free… you can lie…

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