I loved you…but it came with self sabotage & emotional neglect. I didn’t understand the warning labels, loss of identity, depression, stolen confidence, a few of the lingering side effects. Forgiveness is the only cure for the pain & it’s time I let go of what is long gone. After I left home, I learned of the darkness & fear you had me dependent on. There’s a place of peace in me now, one that wasn’t there before. I remind myself the only power you had was the power I gave you, & I won’t give you any more.
Loving myself after being so unloved, is a heartbreaking journey for the brave. It means facing all the pain I ran away from, changing the patterns in my mind & heart that ultimately kept me enslaved.
You’d be mistaken if you think I hate you…that’s far from true. Time & distance has given me clarity, my whole life & self is seen from a completely different view.
I’m healing one day at a time, I’m grateful for the rain & the sun. I know in my heart, love from the beginning, always had this battle won.
