You’ll never know how I fought for my life night after night…. The visions of the monster I saw in you will stay with me for a long time. There’s very little in this life we can control…so much slips through our own hands. Infinite questions in the universe & there’s reasons I’ll never fully…
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A child needs to feel heard & loved…it’s a natural born tendency. In a home of dysfunction that child learns coping mechanisms of harmful dependency. Two parents always there physically, checked out emotionally & mentally. They always meant well…but they made all of us keep a secret we could never tell. I love you & I…
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I’m sitting across an empty table staring at the memories…& one by one they softly leave. I guess grief is a process and I’ll slowly find healing through moments of relief. I had this fantasy in my mind, it just wasn’t ever real. In your eyes I saw the truth & you never could give…
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I overreact every single time, a chemical instinct sparked by fear. In my mind I fabricate an underlying intention & my confidence disappears. Blame found in fantasy & reality, how do I begin to separate? No matter how I try, lashing out like a hurt child is the response my heart involuntarily reciprocates. Don’t tell…
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Wanting to be needed…like a forbidden rush of drugs to a lifelong addict. It’s never enough, but the endless cycle carries the confessions of a devoted fanatic. I wanted you to want me, but my heart needed to be free. I became everything you wanted & killed the voice inside of me. There’s a difference…
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I don’t know how to follow a heart I gave up on…my mind & motivations seem a world away and too far gone. His words are poison to my brain, infecting every thought with self doubt. I look in the mirror & I don’t even know what I’m all about. Turn up the music, drown…
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Laying in emotionless hearts, encased in white & pink glass walls. Candy rings & sugar spun strings. Fragile tears dyed in water colored memories, tell me again the price of being free. A palace of gold hidden away from the light. Only you know the monsters that come out at night. Your voice is memorizing,…
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