There was nothing in you to love…

A cold, indifferent person.

Every act of “kindness” was a manipulation.

Every act of “remorse” was a lie.

My heart hurts, not from losing you.

From ever believing there was some real connection or person to lose in the first place.

All of it feels…

Superficial & emotionlessly calculated.

There was no warmth or love in your eyes.

The loss wasn’t what I thought it was.

I didn’t lose you.

I lost a version of you I wanted….no needed to believe in.

In reality, there was…

An iciness I always felt.

Cool enough to burn, to paralyze my heart.

I built walls to keep people like you out of my life.

But I know now I was only keeping the pain in.

I have to love myself now, in a way I have never been shown.

That is where the change will come.

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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