Life leads you to some dark places at times…it’s difficult for me to try to read between the unspoken lines. Love doesn’t come so easily, when you are against yourself in the path to being free.
I’m learning my own boundaries, my own limitations. I fight every single day but I know I’ll always struggle internally with motivations. Dark to light, light to dark, but I left my ego a long time ago. There’s always more to the story, to the facade & act people choose to show.
Take a breath, take a seat. The worst of kind enemies are those we are too terrified to meet. I’ll take the pain, I’ll rest when I need a break from these harsh words & emotions. The side of me sabotaging the best parts of me doesn’t quit, unwavering in its undying devotion.
Lay me down in dreams until love is all I see. His voice keeps telling me to give in, there’s no way he’ll let me go free.
He thrives on control, wearing a golden crown & throne. He tells me if it’s the last thing he ever does, he’ll destroy everything in me until I accept I’m one of his possessions to own.
I’m human in the mistakes I make, but there’s no returning to the past once you finally awake.
I’m alive more in the moments I embrace my humanity. I lost the war once, too wrapped up in my own broken vanity.
Hate doesn’t cure hate, only love can shatter these walls.
The best remedy for me now is to walk away…knowing I don’t have to answer fear when he comes to call.