I’m sitting across an empty table staring at the memories…& one by one they softly leave. I guess grief is a process and I’ll slowly find healing through moments of relief.

I had this fantasy in my mind, it just wasn’t ever real. In your eyes I saw the truth & you never could give love without conditions or truly let yourself feel.

And I’m mourning the loss of years in a life you once said you gave to me. Tell me again how love is supposed to take away everything.

A little wiser, a little closer to the ground. Forgiveness is difficult when the pain keeps coming back around & around.

You were my entire world & I couldn’t let that go…

But the person you are now, is someone I no longer wish to know.

Wanted to feel safe & at home in your arms, keep me protected from the promise of any harm.

I don’t know where it all went wrong, the truth is I don’t think I ever knew you all along.

I miss the fantasy I painted in my mind, the one of a family.

In the end, I have to accept it was never my reality.

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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