I overreact every single time, a chemical instinct sparked by fear. In my mind I fabricate an underlying intention & my confidence disappears.
Blame found in fantasy & reality, how do I begin to separate? No matter how I try, lashing out like a hurt child is the response my heart involuntarily reciprocates.
Don’t tell me what to do, because I don’t want to be put in a cage. Still fighting off insecurities telling me there’s always a need to fight, argue, or upstage.
You can’t move on by living in a world of what used to be. I can’t turn the page until I clear away the last of my inner shadow’s shattered debris.
It’s basic biology, but a human life is more than a diagnosed psychology.
I dreamed of making the world a better place so I studied sociology.
Then a hard dose of reality shed light on all my childhood fallacies.
I’m not going to save the world & the world doesn’t need another God complex to contend with. Ego strives to overreach, deeply lost in the glory of becoming a legend in the disillusionment of fabled myths.
No…not everyone will use your weaknesses against you to get what they need.
No…not everyone is a slave to corruption & different layers of selfish greed.
No…not everyone is like your father or mother, even though they did their best.
No…not everyone is going to put you on trial & put your love through an impossible test.
No…not everyone will use you as a pawn in a game.
No…not everyone will try to manipulate you by using guilt & shame.
No…not everyone has a monster in them that they hide.
No…not everyone has a violent rage they keep secretly inside.
No…not everyone will cross your boundaries without a thought to your own life.
No…not everyone will smile to your face only then to stab you fatally with a knife.
No…not everyone will tear down your sense of worth & place in this world.
No…not everyone will break your innocence with choosing to be cruel & cold.
No…not everyone will seek to destroy the voice you have within.
No…not everyone will sacrifice you for the win.
Love is no fairy tale, but it is worth it in the end.
It’s all we have to care for one another, to heal, & make amends.