All My Secrets

I used to chase illusions… Hoping to hold a love I never truly had. & I used to play with your emotions… Because I wanted you to make me feel just as bad… As I felt continuously inside. No one could see the secrets & pain I had to Hide. If someone teaches you how to…

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Rose

Silk soft petals stained red. A part of me lost in the place I once bled… You needed me to need you. But this wasn’t what love was made to do. You say I hurt you, the first shots fired with your unsteady hands. & you watched without moving as the bullets started to land.…

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Every One

No, I didn’t want to think of you today. Yes, I did anyways…. Thinking isn’t the same as missing…. & missing isn’t the same as wanting…. & wanting isn’t the same as needing…. Paint me a fantasy, Wash it with the cold colors of reality. Give me a reason to believe, My heart could use…

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Chasing Fear

No one can hurt me in the intimate way I do… But I requested a life with a completely different view. I say, I’m not who I used to be. I trust, I’m not what I lived through or the memories. & I had a difficult impossible day, My faith in love still mapping out…

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Flight

Fall in the fantasy, the changing waters are more than inviting. My blood rushing with in the thrill of a little danger & promises to be exciting. But I tell my heart to wait…I’ve been down this road before. Said all my good byes, locked the windows & closed every door. Old patterns & habits…

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Damages

I lay awake at night & wonder how it all could have ended differently… My heart chasing after a falling dream never meant to be. I only ever wanted to see love in your heart & kindness in your embrace. But when I close my eyes all I can see is the rage dancing across…

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Beautiful Part

A world painted in the eyes of being unloved can never compare to one where you know beyond any measure… You are loved. You do matter. Your life has meaning. You are a priceless treasure. 30 years…living life in a haze of a lie… Fear has the power of taking one painful memory & causing…

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