In my mind…I create the most beautiful of dreams & darkest of nightmares. My imagination runs wild, calmly composed under the mask I can’t help but wear. By the time reason catches reality, I am a million miles from where I need to be.

I smile in the fragile light of hope…until that light begins to flicker & silently fade. Doubt settles in too comfortably, sits back & whispers to me, my fate has already been permanently made.

Wings pinned to the truth, tears pull me down to the ground. I’m my own worst enemy on a good day, anxiety & depression filling up the room with suffocating, suppressive sound.

It’s impossible, give up, & save yourself from another heart break.

Words drowning out any clarity, everything I have said & done, it’s all a mistake.

Let me sleep for a while & don’t let the memory awake.

Sometimes it hurts to dream. The words beginning to leave me.

I close my eyes,

Searching for clarity.

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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