My heart was once consumed in slating defenses,
But sometimes when you heal you build bridges in place of fences.
Looking back at old photographs I see a piece of my dad & mom in me,
Year after year, I look at myself in the mirror and decide who I’m going to be.
If I’m honest, if I’m truthful I have to face my flaws.
My past self I see someone who was arrogant, self absorbed, living for approval & applause.
I’m not mad at the lessons I had to learn,
Everything we give, we will receive double in return.
In your eyes I’m perfect, & that’s just not true or real.
Sometimes we want to be blind to what’s there to chase after the perfect ideal.
I was raised to value a person by what they would give you,
A thousand invisible cuts to my soul, I never knew the prison my childhood put me into.
But I’m here today to tell a different tale.
After a trial of hardships, I trust love will always find a way to prevail.
You’re beautiful & valuable, no matter what they say.
If anyone tells you you’re not worthy of love, there’s no reason good enough for you to stay.
I made mistakes, I hurt some people along the way.
My heart wasn’t taught to love, it was trained specifically to obey.
I have no excuses, no words to defend.
It’s time for this war, this endless battle to finally end.
All my focus & attention on the path ahead of me.
Taking care of my self, shedding the chains & limitations of my old life painfully.