My heart was once consumed in slating defenses,

But sometimes when you heal you build bridges in place of fences.

Looking back at old photographs I see a piece of my dad & mom in me,

Year after year, I look at myself in the mirror and decide who I’m going to be.

If I’m honest, if I’m truthful I have to face my flaws.

My past self I see someone who was arrogant, self absorbed, living for approval & applause.

I’m not mad at the lessons I had to learn,

Everything we give, we will receive double in return.

In your eyes I’m perfect, & that’s just not true or real.

Sometimes we want to be blind to what’s there to chase after the perfect ideal.

I was raised to value a person by what they would give you,

A thousand invisible cuts to my soul, I never knew the prison my childhood put me into.

But I’m here today to tell a different tale.

After a trial of hardships, I trust love will always find a way to prevail.

You’re beautiful & valuable, no matter what they say.

If anyone tells you you’re not worthy of love, there’s no reason good enough for you to stay.

I made mistakes, I hurt some people along the way.

My heart wasn’t taught to love, it was trained specifically to obey.

I have no excuses, no words to defend.

It’s time for this war, this endless battle to finally end.

All my focus & attention on the path ahead of me.

Taking care of my self, shedding the chains & limitations of my old life painfully.

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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