No, I didn’t want to think of you today.
Yes, I did anyways….
Thinking isn’t the same as missing….
& missing isn’t the same as wanting….
& wanting isn’t the same as needing….
Paint me a fantasy,
Wash it with the cold colors of reality.
Give me a reason to believe,
My heart could use a reprieve.
But I couldn’t make you ever see…
The fatal damage you did to me.
I relived our story a million times, the ending never changed.
Every scene & act was played out perfectly, as it was always prearranged.
Letting go is more than forgetting…it’s writing a story you belong in.
Remembering the true unconditional love you have within.
& I laughed until I cried, cried until I laughed the last tears away.
Love, not fear, will be what I have for every one of my days.