More Loving and Kind

I don’t want to try today but I will. There’s no one to justify my life but me as I sit for a moment, alone and still. The tears I cry were once for you, now they fall for me. All this time I was missing the love I found within myself and it set…

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Find Me

I wanted to escape my pain… But with every sip and every bite I just fell further into it. Over eating. Over sleeping. Over shopping. Nothing can numb the aching void. I don’t want to fall again but that way is so familiar. I need to stop chasing after fantasies. I need to find me.

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Pipe Dreams

I waste time in the dreams I fantasize by. But my old ways of thinking and habits only made me cry. I used to write stories of you, villains and victims. Back then I never realized I was caught in a much larger system. When the dreams end, When my heart begins to mend… I’ll…

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End of the Day

In the middle of my own battles there’s two sides. One tries desperately to tear me down, the other is the one where real love resides. Fear reminds me of everything I’ve ever done wrong. Love reminds me I am never alone and I have me all along. Fear claws at my heart with hate…

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Best of Me

In the morning my self esteem is high, By afternoon all of it disappears without a word of good bye. I hear your songs in faint heart beats, My mind very close to accepting defeat. The guilt gets to me sometimes without a real reason why… My dreams are on the horizon but you never…

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Blessed

A single word… And I fall to pieces. Despite my best efforts sometimes the past takes the best of me. Struggling with despair, but it’s determined to keep me from being free. I’m no saint, still I search for the light. There’s only darkness in your eyes. I traded in my ego for kindness, Love…

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Time and Space

My whole life… I looked up to you. But as an adult, your image in my heart took on a different view. You taught me it was possible to love someone you also fear. I learned there was no warmth or kindness in you, year after year. The saddest part is knowing you will never…

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To Be Kind

30 years later and this whole time I defended the wrong mindset… Life is brighter when it’s not only about what you can selfishly get. I lived by his rules and I only could capture regrets. Sometimes it’s better to forgive and try to forget. Under fear, your heart is in a prism of hell.…

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Just Me

I compared my shade of lipstick next to hers… And I lived in a world of a thousand and one methods of control. Never felt good enough in my own skin, He made me believe my existence was a mistake and stained with sin. I took a long, hard look in the mirror and finally…

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Against the Wall

Before you judge her… You should just make sure… Take a walk within her life, until you know every single step. You haven’t even scratched the surface of the secrets she kept. Do you know the battles she had to win to get here? Can you handle the depths of every one of her fears?…

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