I say no a thousand times,
You refuse to listen, as if I’m only speaking in rhymes.
And I still cry tears for the life I never had.
And I try to forget all those times you lost your mind when you were mad.
I take a step back and try to remember a love you couldn’t give.
I try everything I have just to breathe and to freely live.
We take shots at each other silently.
Close my eyes, to forget what you’ll never be.
No one ever said forgiving was done easily.
Count the trust broken in our family.
I trusted in you but look what you did to me.
Faded scars and a heart that breaks effortlessly.
You weren’t there when I needed you.
You won’t ever know you the way I do.
I let you in.
All you ever wanted was to win.
And I wish for the love I never had.
While you tell me, it was never really that bad.
But I don’t want to be loved the way you loved me.
And I won’t walk back to the place where you imprisoned me.