I’m sitting with the pain I feel in broken memories…
Feeling lost when my dearest of friends became my enemies.
And I close my heart against the pain.
Struggling to try to think differently, to somehow reframe.
The mind can make a refuge in a nightmare, and a nightmare in a paradise.
How can I trust you ever again when you once only left me completely terrified.
I can’t remember the last time I felt safe in your embrace.
The tears in my past I can’t erase.
I wish it could have ended differently.
But what good was your love when I could never be free?