Caught in a web of my own making, obsessed with falling for shadows and secrets.

My heart was set on destroying you, but I destroyed myself in the process of revenge.

Take me a step and heartbeat closer to the edge…

A second to waste and my mind draws out the painful reality.

A moment too long and my memory cuts away the nightmares I don’t wish to see.

You cross a boundary and I feel violated just like that time before…

Self destruct until I beg the pain for more.

Chemical reactions blind me ever so completely,

Addiction is fatal but it has the best of me.

The best of me…

Trigger images take over until a haze is all I see.

Tears spring to my eyes and I continue just to swallow a single lie.

Desires to erase the scars and falling in love with lust as life slips by.

Danger in your intentions,

But the lessons you failed to mention.

When you don’t stop when I say it, I feel like a victim all over.

Back against the wall, heart pinned and I can’t stand the cruel exposure.

Your words circle around me in chains and cages.

Nothing has changed, I grow tired of your stages.

I can’t tell you to stop anymore when my voice falls on deaf ears.

Beyond any imagination, I wonder how I survived you after all these years…

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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