The way you live is a little more than excessive…

The way you touch me is far too aggressive.

Every word I say to you is offensive.

Your love runs past the point of obsessive.

I grew up on twisted ideas and fairy tales…

Maybe that’s why I have a fear in my heart of all males.

You live life on the edge.

But your vows have me a little too close to the ledge.

When love feels as dangerous as a drug it’s a fatal throw of the dice.

Addiction extracts a heavy consequence and a never satisfied price.

Self destruction for me was once a well known default device.

Living on the extremes has a toll on the heart and mind.

Pushing yourself too far has a downward spiral of a special kind.

I learned from my father how to numb myself from the pain until there was nothing left to feel.

Then I learned how to cope by taking it to a level of incredible highs, but no one told me facing my own darkness was the way to finally heal.

My mind stays on the negative until I direct it away…

I’m slowly letting myself find a path outside of the role you had me portray.

Keep your world of gold,

My worth isn’t one to be bought or sold.

I’m creating a new story of my own, truth be told.

Keep your riches, empty and cold.

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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