I take everything a little too personally…

Your words take me back to a time where I was feeling helplessly.

Before you even speak I have the narrative written in the ink of negativity.

Convinced without reason you will treat me the same way he did, controlling me completely.

For a long time I wouldn’t face a simple reality.

I never had any control over what he did or said.

Those nights left terrified and alone in my own bed.

I couldn’t control what happened so my mind keeps fighting to find security.

I had no power then, but I do now and I’ll find my way by learning how to keep loving me.

What he did was on him, I have to stop blaming myself for all the wrongs.

I still struggle to change the way I think…

“I said it all wrong…”

“I shouldn’t have done that…”

But no matter what I said or did he would have found a reason to hurt me all along.

I can listen to the voice I have and write my own song.

Sometimes adversity shows up on our doorstep, not to kill us, but to make us strong.

 

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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