Addiction works like this…
Thriving on a feeling you can’t help but possessively miss.
Anticipation you fight but can’t ignore…
It grows until it becomes the very feeling you live for.
A mad rush…it’s a simple chemical dependency.
Pleasures and highs you love, craving blindly.
Release of pressure, the stress fades away.
Then a certainty of guilt lasting into the next day.
Finally, the shame you feel when you know you’re going to stay.
The cycle begins again, and again…you don’t know if you choose it but you know it’s not okay.