I don’t recall…

The moment you lost me.

It was so long ago…

In tears and time.

Maybe I deserved it.

Maybe I …

You don’t know what you did to me.

How it killed me.

I drowned myself in your sorrows.

And I took on your regrets.

Every night I waited…

Waited for you to change.

To be the one to comfort me.

To hold me.

To tell me it would all be okay.

And so many years later…

I’m still waiting.

Waiting for you to see the pain you left me with.

You put the gun to my head…

Your hands steady and sure.

You didn’t hesitate.

You didn’t move away.

Your eyes were cold.

Cold enough to paralyze me.

And I didn’t stop you.

I didn’t step back.

Your threats were real.

Your hate was devastating.

Your rage was…traumatizing.

I close my eyes and all I feel is the tension in my bones.

The triggers I can’t forget.

Lost in the ways you hurt me.

But you talk of it as if it never happened.

As if…I shouldn’t be upset.

As if…I’m upsetting you.

And it breaks me still.

I’m falling apart and you don’t see it.

No, you don’t see it.

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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