I don’t need to look where you’re aiming…
Because it’s straight to my heart.
I wish I was surprised.
I wish I knew better.
But your burdens and fears bleed into me.
Escaping you is…a choice I have yet to make.
Your love feels every shade of fake.
When you told me to smile through the pain I tried to forgive you in those moments.
I buried all the secrets and lies.
Tell me how you love me.
Tell me how deeply you truly care.
Convince me once more of your well wishes.
You play the hero so well I don’t know how to pull away.
But every gesture of kindness and every word of love…
Leaves me shattered.
Because back then…
You didn’t mean it.
You didn’t take care of me.
You stopped my heart in silence.
You washed my mind with shame.
How I dreamed of a …real family.
But you don’t know me.
And I know only shadows of you.