Stepped Out

I fight against the memory of you. Haunted by a distorted illustration of love existing only in dreams. The battles of the past have ended, but my mind still believes it’s happening now. Close my eyes only to wake to the sound of words flowing through my thoughts. I stepped into love, as you stepped…

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You disappear.

I don’t read fairy tales anymore… They remind me of everything we didn’t have. I didn’t want it to be perfect. I would have given so much to feel your presence there. I could have reached for you endlessly, but your heart didn’t have any love left to care. I miss your… I think of……

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I can’t believe in you anymore.

I hate how I can’t believe in you anymore. I still remember the locks you broke on my bedroom doors. And you fed me only darkness and told me it was light. You chipped away at me in our scary, abusive fights. Why couldn’t it be…what a family should be. It was less painful when…

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So perfectly

I wrote a poem about all that we could ever be… Then the pain and fear of those nights came rushing back to me. I missed…only the fantasy. You say, all we had was family. Now I’m left with the pain of how it fell apart so perfectly.  

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Best you can do…

You had me question every act of love with why. Why would someone love me, why would someone care… You replaced every kindness you gave me with a lie. And it was so very long ago… I should get over it and go with what I already know. But the pain stayed with me for…

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