I don’t know how to process…the loss of you.

You were abusive.

You were cruel.

You were controlling.

You were also kind.

You were also human.

You were also broken.

But to a daughter, you were supposed to be my hero.

Instead, you were…someone else.

When you left and our family broke apart…

I stopped believing in everyone.

Despite all we went through, it didn’t compare to not having you there.

Even when I know it’s not my fault, I can’t fathom it.

You treated us like trash…only to throw us all away in the end.

I can’t handle it at times.

But it’s getting better day by day.

I’ll never understand how a father can leave his child…not like that.

It digs into me and it leaves me with loss.

Yet I know…

Sometimes it’s better to be alone than be around someone who…can’t love you.

Who makes you feel empty and worthless.

Love is such a curse.

And a blessing.

Your last words to me…

Threw so much hate and harm it left me speechless.

And I…

Still cried over losing you.

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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