Love is not love when you force it to be.
Growing up, all your regulations and conditioning made me feel anything but free.
Vacations and holidays, but my heart back then was heavy.
Every “nice” act you ever did only reminded me of the demands you would later levy.
Healing, and it takes time to do.
It will take more than a minute to process what I went through.
I’m not bitter, no I’m no longer mad.
Still figuring out what to do after the point where I’m no longer wishing you would give me what I never had.
Because in my heart, I needed real love, one that wasn’t hidden behind silence and secrets.
My kindness and my personality, that was never my weakness.
I’m going to stay with those who are there for me.
You know what they say…if you love someone,
Set them free.