You won’t see me walk down the aisle, all dressed in white.
Even if I saw you tomorrow, the shade you wear still stirs up past fights.
It would be pretending if I said I never cared enough.
My heart’s a little shaken within an exterior that’s guarded and tough.
The presence you once had in my life was my entire world.
All the returned gifts, sharp accusations, power plays, they leave me bare and cold.
How could I ever trust you with my life and our family.
But you’re not the one I want here and I’ve accepted what cannot be.
Every time I see a kind and brave man, it breaks me down completely.
When it reminds me of the father you never were and the love you couldn’t give me.