Healing

After Surviving

I still have those…dark kind of days. Still I struggle in moments to find my own way. Healing a heart is a journey of self love and care. Stripping the layers built in painful years. Broken pieces in memory and sometimes they are what I see. Fear and doubt always at the ready, but I…

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Love

His love was poison…

His love was poison… But she knew no other. He convinced her she needed him. They would always stand by each other. But he cut her down day by day. His heart and his morality went the other way… Hell is loving someone who abuses you… Addiction is what you become accustomed to. Endless cycles…

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Mindset

A little more of love

Let me count the love you give me… Every teardrop still upon my pillow. It’s possible to love someone… And despise them all the same. My thoughts are tidal waves and sometimes I don’t know where they will land. One day I’m on top of the world… The next all I want to do is…

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Pain

Your Own Voice

He left me with the worst pain of my life… Stabbed me over and over, then twisted and turned the knife. And if I gave him my power…I would still be in his nightmares. But love was never a part of the facade he wears. I have scars, running far and deep within. It doesn’t…

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Love

Good Bye

I don’t know how to let you go… Is there any love in the emotions you don’t show? I tell my heart to give up but it won’t listen. My mind still stays in a familiar prison… I love you and I don’t know why. But I know…. I know you won’t ever reply. So…

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Struggle

Commiserate

Never thought I could hate… I don’t want to see myself in this state. The shame, guilt, and pain you give me feels innate. But you have more than enough on your own plate. Sitting across from you, I don’t even know how to commiserate. The shadows you give me seem to consequently proliferate.  …

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Innocence

You didn’t want to stay…

I’m left broken but I don’t want to change. I tell my story and the ending is always the same. My heart can’t figure out why… You let me go, you didn’t even try. How can you call it love when it feels like this. And all the cruel parts of you are what I…

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Loss

Display

Tell me how much you hate me. Make the words stay. I see it in your eyes… You don’t have to put your love on display. Because you don’t know how to love someone like me… Repeat it back twice, the pain captured my melody. You’re too much…. Too much for a heart that’s broken…

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Loss

Just like you planned

No one can hate me the way I can. I’m my number one enemy and my number one fan. What you don’t say kills me just like you planned. Even if you were here I don’t think you’d ever understand. It’s a one way relationship and there’s nothing more left in me. I’m more used…

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