I tried for so long…

To get over you.

Forcing myself to forget the memories.

But I never walked too far.

You were my world and we have years in between.

Maybe I’ll never get over how you left.

Maybe these scars will always be there…

I guess I have to stop telling myself you didn’t matter at all.

The truth is…

My tears were a way to hold on to you.

And I didn’t want to let go.

And I didn’t want to be over you.

Acceptance is a new place for me.

I don’t know it very well.

And I don’t have to pretend you didn’t mean anything to me.

My past is filled with stories of love so distant from me.

Of people who were too far away.

I wrote myself in a time paralyzed in your memories.

When you abandoned me,

I abandoned me.

You matter to me, you do.

But there was a part of me that changed.

No longer seeing through the same…

Distorted view.

With every word and every play…

You pushed me away.

Until I stopped trying.

Until I gave up on loving you,

To love me.

And I know you had your struggles…battles you could never win.

But I have to heal myself before a new life…

Can begin.

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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