True

I love you across a dream… I get caught up in the fantasies. But I fear I’m just repeating a pattern from childhood. My heart feels tired and misunderstood. Because..he was never truly there. And he didn’t show me he fully cared. All I wanted was to be loved and held with open arms. But…

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I said no

I gave away my heart for nothing… Because that’s just how I was taught. Self esteem never held together… He made me feel as if my soul could be bought. And forgiveness…it comes with time and space. Memories linger on the surface of your face. This whole time I had you on white pedestals and…

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Don’t want to stay

I don’t want to pretend to be happy when I’m not. I tell myself to let it go…but in my heart I simply cannot. It would be easier if I could just act as if…all our memories I forgot. But they replay in my head over and over. As I keep searching and searching for…

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Doors

Your words cut into me… But you say them so easily. It tears upon my heart and soul. The memories I have of you only leave a hole. I hate myself for opening the door for you. You have no idea what you put me through. Best friends… This connection has reached its final end.…

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When I Believe

I tell myself my dreams are impossible…but maybe that isn’t true. Self doubt and insecurities used to follow everything I do. But today… I just want to believe anything is possible when I believe. It’s true…when we create our own reality. I once waited on a miracle… But now I know… It’s up to me.

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In Between

I love you….without knowing why. But when you’re not truly there…I don’t know why I try. Still it’s good to see you smile. Haven’t seen your face in quite a while. I remember the first song I heard of you and it seems like a lifetime ago. But I’m left hoping for more when I’m…

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True Colors

The deepest hell is loving someone who abuses you… Playing games with your heart and mind…tearing you in two. I made excuses for you…only wanting to remember the “good” days… Until the weight of denial became too heavy for me to see it in a rose colored way. You have multiple sides, cruel, kind, innocent,…

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