The deepest hell is loving someone who abuses you…
Playing games with your heart and mind…tearing you in two.
I made excuses for you…only wanting to remember the “good” days…
Until the weight of denial became too heavy for me to see it in a rose colored way.
You have multiple sides, cruel, kind, innocent, vulnerable…wrapped up into one.
But when you mocked my own pain and escaped any accountability…that’s the moment I was completely done.
It would be easy for me to forgive you again and again…for the same behavior.
I always thought you were my friend, my family, my supporter…but now I see you were secretly a devoted hater.
Because every confession I make….
You use against me and highlight my failures and mistakes.
All your love feels empty and fake.
You’re a vulture in sheep’s clothing.
Confronting my denial, now I know you’re not worth knowing.
Because people like you just take pleasure in hurting others.
It took me years to finally see your true colors.