never knew you

It hurts me to see your face in photographs… But I guess it’s a love hate relationship when you are the one to fill these paragraphs. Tell me if any of it was ever real… When my love was foolishly yours to steal. I see you through a filtered lens. Every word you say was…

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note to self

i want to be good to you… treat you with love and respect. honor all of your flaws and tell you it’s okay not to be perfect. you spent so much time trying to make others see… when all you had to do was look within me. let them hate you, let them love you…

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cruelty

Don’t let a messed up person…mess you up. Don’t worry about them…pour only love into your own cup. Because some people…they only want to see you fall. And others…will carry you and support you through it all. I left those behind who hurt me without a conscience and heart. I let them have their way…

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Bare

I wanted you there… The anger and pain is too much to bare. But letting you have the power to hurt me further…is a choice I don’t have to make. Sometimes we let people in and I know now it was a mistake. There’s a difference between being guarded and being heartless. Not saying my…

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Pursue

It doesn’t help me to stay mad at you… You can’t right a wrong by making it two. I hate how much I believed in you. I hate how I let you back in and lit the fuse. Afterwards…I always feel used. My heart was completely fooled. Sometimes stupidity wins when logic is overruled. I…

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what you do…

It’s insane how I chased after you. To yourself…always be true. You knew exactly how to bring out the worst in me. But when it came to you…innocence and love was all I could see. I’m a fool…I should have known better. Still remember those days we wore each other’s clothes and traded sweaters. Back…

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Fair

I guess I dodged a bullet… Hope you live your life to its fullest. I’m more mad at myself for letting you back in. With you…it’s like someone has to lose and someone has to win. And I can’t take it anymore when you don’t even care. The past, not the present or future, is…

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Ghost

I hate that I loved you no matter what you did to me. I hate all the reminders and all the fabricated memories. My eyes only wanted to see you through a certain view. Started to reconnect but it’s over now, we’re through. It hurts until it heals. Hit me in the heart and I…

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Direct Attack

You tear me down with memories. I hate how it just wasn’t meant to be. Only see you through a golden lens. Making more enemies from previous friends. You’re toxic to me but I kept coming back. Every word you say to me feels like a direct attack. I get mad and I get bitter……

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Heart Break

Don’t come at me unless you shoot to kill. Your words and wounds get to me still. Never should have given you another chance. I’d rather be solo in this painful dance. You speak and I can’t handle it. My resolve disappearing, hit after hit. It was a mistake. Everything you do to be nice…

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