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He was a complex person, a dizzying mixture of extremes. With him…nothing was really as wholesome and honest as it first seemed. He could leave you shattered and haunt the darkest of dreams. While crowning you with this golden spotlight, as if you were above it all in his regime. He could lift you to…

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My Own Heart

Confuse the feeling of butterflies with danger. She fell in love but he wanted only to keep her to change her. Capture beauty in subtlety… Grand illusions have a place with me. She was lost and she was alone. Still grates upon her nerves when he uses a condescending tone. It’s hard to put away…

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Love’s Way

I don’t want to be ruled by fear anymore. Fear made a home and locked every window and door. Fear kept me living life in only fantasy. I didn’t want to try to face the harshness of reality. The pain reached every part and memory. I couldn’t face what happened to me. How it changed…

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Pain and Fear

The pain and fear are interwoven into every part of her. They create the very fabric of her emotional and mental states. Years and years of conditioning are not easily undone. But the healing comes in puzzle pieces. It will take time to trust…instead of question. It will take time to love…instead of fear. It…

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Apologies

I’m sorry for the pain I caused you. I’m sorry for the nightmares we tied ourselves to. I’m sorry for putting myself above you. I’m sorry for not caring to see your point of view. I’m sorry for the times I let you down. I’m sorry for wanting to wear a crown. I’m sorry for…

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Soar

We all are worthy of love, there’s no real hierarchy. Lay down your weapons, abandon your intimidating armies. I don’t want to fight you, I don’t want to engage hatefully. There’s questions I have to ask myself now to love faithfully. Caught up in my pain, it’s easy to repeat patterns and never change. My…

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Every Day

I make mistakes… At times I don’t give as much as I take. Sometimes I see only black and white. I can confuse what’s wrong with what’s right. I shouldn’t blame you for the choices I’ve made. All my anger and pain beginning to fade. I’m no better than you, when we all have our…

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Nothing to Fear

I know power and I know control. His methods of loving me priced an extravagant toll. Shattered and remade my entire soul. Until I fell upon the shores of love. He suffocated me with white covered gloves. Still what I gave him was never enough. And he would hurt me just to show me how…

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Not For Sale

Should have known better to entertain you… But sometimes we don’t know what we get ourselves into. It started off just so innocently… But in the end that’s not how it would be. I’ve said it before, but love isn’t love when you don’t feel free. My heart couldn’t forget the darker shades of memory.…

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