Whatever You Do

I’m not proud of what I did to hurt you… I wanted to hold on… I wanted to have you in my life. But when I reached out and showed you my scars… All you did was twist the knife. I loved you like family. I trusted you with my whole heart and you’re still…

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True

Never thought of us as unhealthy until the day I took a step back… All of my movements and thoughts…you seem to obsessively track. Back then…the good times all seem to fade away to black. I tried to stay….but the more I did the more of myself I lost. No matter who you want to…

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Love Me

I fear commitment… I run from it in fear of having something that truly matters to me. When I’ve lost so much already. I push people away, still hoping they choose to stay. So many have left. And the lonely nights get to me. But it was worse when I was with you… Alone in…

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Okay

There’s something about you… I simply connect with. But our love story… Is only a written myth. And I cling onto the hope you feel the same way. Hearing your voice, seeing your face gets me through the day. There’s something familiar in the words you say. But maybe leaving you… Is what I need…

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Dictatorship

Living under him… Was a dictatorship. Everything about you… Is broken down and stripped. Speak up and be shot down immediately. Step out of line and be taught how to act obediently. Self expression is banned. Don’t question his absolute command. Don’t think. Don’t even blink. There’s certain death in the Kool-Aid you drink. He’ll…

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Finding Me

The unspoken rules…. And expectations. I grew up this way. Don’t show emotions. Keep it all in. Smile. You’re nothing. You’re worthless. Pathetic. Selfish. His words were in my head for an entire lifetime. Repeating countless times. Don’t step out of line. Don’t fight back. Be quiet. Stay silent. Don’t speak. Everything meant to keep…

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