my greatest fears…
all came true.
because whatever i focused on…
patterns and patterns,
you never knew.
i walked into darkness without knowing what i got myself into.
his rage found a safe home in me, touched it all.
his violence made itself comfortable and runs deep in these walls.
confessions of him and mine.
his cycles of abuse repeat in time.
the worst part of hating you was hating me.
will your path in life be in turn my final destiny.
my head falls heavy with reality.
i can’t do this anymore.
can’t be what i live for.