sick

it makes me sick..

the way i once felt “lucky” to be loved by you…

when all your love was poison.

killing me slowly.

vivid shades of darkness in your eyes.

the denial was ten feet deep.

to you i was merely a possessive to keep.

but i kept wanting your love, no matter what you did.

i was just a kid…

a kid.

i didn’t know what it was.

i thought monsters were only in fairy tales.

the walls of my home were bars lining a beautiful jail.

you were the leader of our family.

a hero, whose flaws none of us could even see.

your love was all i ever knew.

the hate and bitterness from you grew.

until…

i learned what real love was.

cut you out of my life just because…

for the first time i saw the coward you truly were.

no matter what you did…

you could never destroy her.

reality has never been so clear.

you controlled me for years.

but i was the one who dried these tears.

no longer afraid of you…

as love defeats the last of fears.