detriment

there was a time I couldn’t imagine my life without you…

it was like imagining the day without the rain…

I got used to the distance and the pain.

didn’t know who I was without you…

back then I couldn’t care enough about me to let my conscience guide me in being true….

sometimes we make attachments to the people and things we know deep down…are only a detriment…

I never knew the way I would see you in everything and everyone long after your presence was truly gone…

said I hated you but you were still the one in every life and love I’ve ever drawn…

until…

I kept telling myself it wasn’t love…

wasn’t love…

but I couldn’t just walk away….

then my own heart told me…

maybe there’s no reality where holding onto you would make it okay….

I was hoping you could change…

but I was the one who had to change…

how to move on when you can’t hold on and let go at the same time…

love is unpredictable and blind.

but there will come a day…

where you won’t be the one filling in the spaces of the words I say…