I created a dream world to escape the pain of my reality…
It was a place I could finally forget the nightmare I was living in but even in fantasy…
I wasn’t truly free….
Because I was just running from one pain to another…
When the answer was never outside of me, it was in my unresolved issues with my birth father and mother….
I was abandoned before I even knew their names…
And then given to a family where love was just an empty game…
It shattered me in so many ways…
I lived through lifetimes in mere days…
And it left me broken…
They silenced my heart and stole every word I left unspoken….
I couldn’t live with that pain so I created another story…
But now the lines between truth and fiction become lost and blurry…
I chase after the love I couldn’t find in me…
And it created a heartbreaking dependency…
Deep down I know it’s all just fairy tales…
The scars are hidden in the finer details…
I was broken, but I had hope for their love anyways…
But they carved unworthy in my own name…