I never knew my birth father…

Never saw my birth mother…

I grew up with a hole of emptiness in my heart…

And it only grew bigger as time wore on…

Food couldn’t fill it…

Sleep couldn’t erase it…

But I became so good at self destruction…

Sometimes I would wonder if I wasn’t enough for them to stay…

And the parents who raised me…

Couldn’t love me unconditionally…

So I ran away in more ways than one…

I never felt at home…

Never felt whole…

I looked and looked outside of me for a way to numb the emotional wreckage…

And escape the prison of my own mind…

The abuse I felt from others and myself just deepened the pain…

Buried it cruelly within me…

But there comes a time where you have to stop running…

And face the fears before they destroy you completely…

I felt unloved but that didn’t make me unlovable….

I felt worthless…but I wasn’t…

It would take years….

Years that felt like lifetimes…

But eventually…

I would find a love that could never abandon me…

A love that would never leave….

And that love…

Was the love only I could have…

For me.

 

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

Leave a Reply

Please log in using one of these methods to post your comment:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s