I grew up with darkness around my heart…

Maybe he wasn’t the only one to tear myself apart…

A young girl with a distorted reality of her own worth…

Deep fears and insecurities she ultimately gave birth…

The wild rage she kept was a fire burning in the wind and rain…

But she couldn’t face the source of her wounds and her pain…

Her hands shaking as her body hugged the cold floor…

She knew better than to fall but a part of her wanted more…

Eating was a compulsion to stop the emptiness from spilling in…

Sleeping was a way to cope with the hate she had turned toward herself within…

And this journey was one of self love and finding true acceptance…

All this time the sense of being unwanted felt like a fatal life sentence…

But in time the hate would turn to love, the fear would fade into trust…

She would stop fighting against herself and the pictures she painted of the world of being indifferent and unjust…

He knew her weakness and twisted the knife…

But she wouldn’t ever give him the satisfaction of ending her life…

The love she needed was always within her hands and the battle was all in her head…

She touched the edge of forever when she stopped wishing to be dead…

It doesn’t matter who started the war because she would end it and decide her own way…

I chose self love and acceptance in the end and it changed the rest of my days…

 

 

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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