it was easier when I could place every reason for my pain on you….
back then I didn’t have to look in the mirror and face the bitter truth…
you might have been the one who hurt me originally….
but I’ve been my own best enemy ever since…
until I learned how to love myself unconditionally…
but the truth is…
love and acceptance takes time…you don’t heal overnight….
and two wrongs never did make anything alright…
I sat with my tears in one hand and my happiness in the other…
my heart told me you can’t have both, let go of the pain so you can shed these dark colors…
the poison you gave me…
I’ve been filling the cup ever since….
but the math doesn’t add up and the choice to stay in the past doesn’t make any sense….
I can’t get back what I’ve lost…
but these resentments take a cold and calculated cost…
I’m ready to forgive…
when that is the only way I’ll ever begin to fully live….
