everything

I needed your love more than anything… But when I awoke from my dreams… I found my arms and heart were left completely empty…. A long walk home to the love within me… I once escaped in you… Now I live with the love in me… And losing you… Changed everything… But not in the…

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company

even though it wasn’t love… I became used to your company… even though it wasn’t kind… I adjusted to you painfully…. and the sound of the words you don’t say… shatters my strength and ability to be… okay… but I’ll let go of these memories… and let love show me the way…

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wash away the fantasy

every word I used to personalize… as if my worth was under attack… and every thought of you made me think of all I believed I lacked… love wasn’t in your eyes that night… but the bitterness and resentment I held for years… no longer lives within my sight… I don’t have to memorialize your…

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peace

It’s a whole new world when you no longer need to fill the emptiness inside… When you embrace your fears and have nothing left to really hide… There’s still an internal struggle, one I have to own… The difference now I no longer feel like I’m not enough and alone… Take care of yourself in…

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used to

used to need you to feel like I could be loved… but I decided I’m going to be my most beloved… because depending on you to feel beautiful and worthy takes a toll… I can’t leave my heart open to be toyed with, that’s no longer my defining role… and I grew up knowing only…

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I should do

grew up with radio silence… at the end of every conversation was him… dictating every move… I guess the thing that terrifies me the most is hearing a response… hearing the sound of my voice and having it mean something… was silent all those years… but it was familiar then… now the thought of speaking…

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clean slate

the past is gone…. the future lays ahead… today and this moment is where I create a fresh start… letting go of what I no longer need… steps towards a new life…

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