I swallowed his anger and made it my own….

When he lost it over a spilled drink or dropped plates…

And I just couldn’t….

Understand it then….

Whenever I made a mistake he would…

Light a fire to my heart and watch it burn…..

When I was human and vulnerable and real….

He would break me down to nothing and laugh in my face as I broke apart…

And I don’t want to feel that pain….

I don’t want to feel the hurt he left me with….

But running away from it only gave it strength….

Nothing I ever did was enough….

Not enough to stop the raging storms in his blacked out eyes….

So full of hate and cruelty….

The poison spilled into me….

But….

He never knew the cure….

Love….

Every time he told me I was worthless….

Every moment he broke me apart…

And I never knew how to love without this pain…

His anger washes over me until there’s nothing but love to feel….

His pain pours into me until it has no choice but to heal….

I couldn’t stop the rushing waters….

But I ran wild in the rain….

And then…

Another loved me and took from me the pain….

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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