those thoughts….

were drenched and soaked in suicide…

those thoughts….

buried themselves deep until every part of me wished to hide….

a world and a lifetime ago…

secrets he’ll never truly know….

his abuse made me want to end it all…

but in those times I….

blamed myself for the fall….

I was angry…

I was scared…

I felt vulnerable and I…

Break down after the truths I shared…

There’s flashes of emotions within every thought and memory…

But I’ve learned to let the past go and you can’t imprison yourself to set yourself free…

he suffered too….

his world was a black and broken view…

I’m not the one to save you…

Not the one to change you either….

If you see me….

Don’t think you could ever keep her….

I cried the tears I needed to cry….

I held my own self when I prayed to die….

And I hated myself until the hate turned to love and peace….

The race and bullets now silent as old ties decease…

Feel every feeling until it fades…

My hands no longer resting on the blade…

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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