Games

You play a game… And I play it twice…. You control me by taking away my power…. And your methods aren’t very nice… Around and around we go…. But there’s a truth only I fully know…. You are a prisoner in your own black fantasy…. Living in a world where you will never love and…

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forgiven

I used to run away sometimes…. Only safe in the places of my mind…. When love was a simple transaction…. The coldest cuts break you into a thousand fractions… I learned a lot from him and I don’t take the lessons for granted… Some will throw themselves in front of the oncoming train for you…and…

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within me

I’m still grieving the loss of the life I used to live… I’m still mourning the loss of the family we once had… But the pain flows from my heart hitting the harshness of reality…. The family we had was broken to begin with…long before it all fell apart… What hurt me the most was…

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now

My tears are colored with anger, pain, grief, sorrow, despair, relief, hope, love… Everything in between… I loved you. I hated you. I feared you…. But now… When I think of you I don’t imagine this invincible man who had all the power in the world…. I see a scared, broken boy….who never healed the…

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rest

it bothers me that I could love someone that hurt me…. as if there’s something wrong with me…. but I never knew it was pain… when it was mixed with toxic love…. I feel guilty for caring for you… ashamed as you throw me away… I feel even worse that I saw for a time…

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i’m better

let the past be the past… nothing, even the darkness, ever infinitely lasts… if all we have is now… you have to focus on what thoughts your heart will allow… and I once dedicated my life and time to the pain… but reliving all these memories is always in vain…. I’m proud of the journey…

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everything

I couldn’t let you go…. Not for the longest time… You were always there… In the shadows and in my past… I loved a part of you… I hated the other…. In your eyes I saw someone I loved…. And someone I feared more than anything… For a time I believed in a lie… A…

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bittersweet

panic settles a little too easily under my skin… and even then I don’t want the nightmares to win… sleep a little…until dreams spill into reality…. the best things in life… they truly are for free… and all I ever wanted was this…. bittersweet remedies…

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separate

tell me it will be okay… and I’ll believe you to the end… when you listen to the lies for long enough… they don’t feel like pretend… your eyes captured my heart and mind… what you search for, you always find… and I… don’t know if you’re okay… but we haven’t said a word to…

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scenes

Oh I’m sitting with my heart here in my hands… Once begging for everyone but myself to understand… And I wonder why they left… And I ponder of the reasons why I haven’t slept… But I have reasons for the love I alone kept…. You’re in my head and my dreams… Even then, the reality…

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