within me

You don’t love me… You love yourself… And I can’t help you… You need to help yourself… Your love is a pit… It destroys everything it touches…. For so long I laid there…. Believing I didn’t deserve any better… But somewhere along the line… I learned how to love myself…. And that changed everything… An…

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I will love me

I’m scared to let go… I’m scared to be happy…. I’m scared to fall in love with a new life… My whole life and identity has evolved around this victim narrative…. I defended it… I stood behind it… I kept it…alive. It hurts to let go… It brings forth more than tears…. But you know….…

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heart

I’m moving forward… Letting go…. Leaving behind all the places I know… One step in front of the other, one day at a time… Forgiving myself and you of every last painful crime…. Creating a place of peace within my mind… Embracing myself in ways that are patient and kind…. And in those moments where…

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matters

there’s pain, and tears…. but the memories are fading of the years…. I’m beginning to love the company I carry… The person I am… Far from perfect… Far from ideal… But beautiful and unique in all the ways it truly matters…  

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love yourself

there’s a soft gentleness to closure… all cards on the table with open disclosures… and I once thought clinging onto the pain would make it better… but I’ve set free the last of these broken, tear filled letters… part of being human is embracing the vulnerability that comes with loving… when you know you have…

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alright

it gets a little better day by day…. the love I give to myself kindly stays… and I see you through loving eyes… the past and pain slowly dies…. I believe in the life I can create…. my heart is free, no longer carrying the weight…. and I’m thankful for the days and nights… somehow,…

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never

I never thought… I would ever get over you…. Tears and day dreams…. Twisted realities… But never did I imagine the day…. Where I would not have you there…. I thought the pain and past would live through me forever…. But as I heal from it all… You disappear… I’m no longer running… No longer…

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