I’m scared to let go…

I’m scared to be happy….

I’m scared to fall in love with a new life…

My whole life and identity has evolved around this victim narrative….

I defended it…

I stood behind it…

I kept it…alive.

It hurts to let go…

It brings forth more than tears….

But you know….

I’m more scared of holding on….

I’m more scared to let the past dictate my future…

I’m more scared of staying in a place I know that’s not right for me…

I’m more scared of allowing the pain poison the love within me…

I lived my whole life trying to fit into a box….

Saying all the right things….

Doing all the rights things…

Losing parts of me to please and satisfy others…

And I cannot do it anymore….

I have to be unapologetically me…

The unique, brave, kind, smart, compassionate me.

You don’t like me…that’s okay….

You don’t need me…I’ll be okay….

You don’t love me…I’ll love me…

I’ll love me every single day….

When it’s hard….

When it’s painful…

When it’s impossible…

I will love me…

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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