find

I miss you but I don’t want you back… The truth hits me with a blade… I needed hearts but all you had were spades… And I’m mourning the loss a little at a time… I tell myself it’s okay to feel… It still kills me that none of it was ever real… The reality…

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tasted

I don’t want to leave… I don’t want to get better…. But I sit here in old habits and… I lose myself in unsent letters… One step forward… A thousand back to the past…. I struggle and crawl toward tomorrow…. Hoping the last of my strength is enough to last… I loved you until… My…

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never

I love… I… I loved you… Once before… But.. We stopped… And shut the door…. I fell for you… In a fantasy… And when I awoke… I knew it would… Never… Be…

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believe

I’m mad at myself for giving in… I beat myself up for losing battles before they begin… I’m better than this I know… A person has a million sides to them they never show… Losing you was hard…losing me was too… Sometimes you shatter completely before you can have a brighter view…. You don’t stop…

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hope

I hear the ringing in my ears…. Twist and turn lost and broken years… I run away and run away… Tomorrow asks for a price I don’t want to pay… Triggered again when I remember you… But when you’re in a nightmare… Your only hope is getting through….

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okay

I stumble and I fall… I stop myself from answering your call… And it feels good to let go but it still hurts my heart… Something always pulls me back from making a brand new start… You love someone to lose them…. You lose someone just to love them… And my mind has a tendency…

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live

I’m a little jaded… A little hurt…. I hide my feelings behind thin walls…. And there’s no pretending my past doesn’t carry its share of dirt… But I won’t come when you call… No I won’t beg upon my knees… Even when the desperation in your voice says please… Love is complex… But I’m not…

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