I miss you but I don’t want you back…
The truth hits me with a blade…
I needed hearts but all you had were spades…
And I’m mourning the loss a little at a time…
I tell myself it’s okay to feel…
It still kills me that none of it was ever real…
The reality washes over me in waves…
But I don’t want to dig my own grave…
There’s more to life than what we had…
What wasn’t there…
Still leaves me a little broken and a little more sad….
But I have a thankful heart and mind…
Whatever you seek…
You will always…
Always…
Find…