I was jealous….

And I was bitter…

Hate how you up and quit her…

Gave up so easily…

But it was me who couldn’t see…

He played me like I played you and I’m not proud…

Sometimes my head and heart get lost in rose colored clouds…

The worst part was never what he did…

But all the things he never did…

He never encouraged me to follow my own heart…

He never gave me freedom and independence for a new start…

He kept me in a cage…

And even when he was gone…internally I didn’t age….

Because in my heart I’m still that girl who no one saved…

No one but me knew the depths to the ways he was truly depraved…

But I’ve been living in the past…

Keeping him alive and pouring heat over flames to make it last….

But I’m tired of this prison…

The only way forward is to create a new and loving vision….

 

 

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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