I lay my head upon soft pillows and mixed feelings….
No one ever promised life would be easy….
But the only person I can ever be is…
Simply me….
And I used to kill myself to fit into a box you wanted me to….
When you convinced me love was based on conditions and seeing through only your tainted view….
I’m not angry…
Not bitter….
Still hurting…
Still think of the ways you damaged her…
And I had to reach a place where I was at peace…
All the wars and battles in my head long ago ceased…
Even with tears in my eyes….
I could no longer live in the fantasy of your lies…
Love isn’t simple…
But when it’s real you know it’s real…
And love never asks you to dim your own light….
Love never requires you to turn off the way you feel…
