letter to me

why can’t I love you? why is it so hard….. why can’t I accept you? why do I treat you without regard…. I used to close my eyes to hate you…. and lied to myself to just get through…. I was never loved for who I was…. they put me down and controlled me just…

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love me

he convinced me I could never be loved…. and it killed me to live a life only he dreamed of…. you can have the whole world love you… and it won’t mean a thing… because if you can’t love the person in the mirror…. you’re a caged  bird, fear stealing your voice to sing… and…

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be

Oh I feel the pain running deeper…. And some days I feel strong and others it’s like I’m getting weaker… It hurts when I think of all the ways you betrayed my trust… But we do what we do and we survive as we must… I trusted you with my whole heart…. Never did I…

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more kind

Had another trigger today…. Wasn’t even thinking of you and then my focus went away…. Moments still push and pull upon my healing heart…. Even when I try to make a better life and new start…. I guess I have to take my time to feel the pain…. Maybe I’ll never forget you and trying…

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