now

My tears are colored with anger, pain, grief, sorrow, despair, relief, hope, love… Everything in between… I loved you. I hated you. I feared you…. But now… When I think of you I don’t imagine this invincible man who had all the power in the world…. I see a scared, broken boy….who never healed the…

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rest

it bothers me that I could love someone that hurt me…. as if there’s something wrong with me…. but I never knew it was pain… when it was mixed with toxic love…. I feel guilty for caring for you… ashamed as you throw me away… I feel even worse that I saw for a time…

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i’m better

let the past be the past… nothing, even the darkness, ever infinitely lasts… if all we have is now… you have to focus on what thoughts your heart will allow… and I once dedicated my life and time to the pain… but reliving all these memories is always in vain…. I’m proud of the journey…

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everything

I couldn’t let you go…. Not for the longest time… You were always there… In the shadows and in my past… I loved a part of you… I hated the other…. In your eyes I saw someone I loved…. And someone I feared more than anything… For a time I believed in a lie… A…

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